I am resting on a meadow…lying on the soft ground with my eyes fixed to the sky. The sky is bathing in purple and red, as if put on fire by the setting sun. I lay there at peace… contemplating over everything and nothing… listening to the grass blades whispering dazzle in the wind. Suddenly I hear something else… I lift my head and listens… concentrates to discern the sound through the howling wind. There it is… footsteps.

The sound spontaneously puts a smile on my face. I recognize those steps very well. Before I reach as far as getting up on my feet… You are there. You lean over me, and kiss my forehead gently. I look into your sad blue eyes… notice how the eye contact between us lights a spark of happiness in them. We look at each other in silence. I can hear you breathing… Feel the warmth and passion that radiates from within you.

We sit close together… watching the setting sun as it dives into the horizon. In this magical world, we are like one. Pulled together by forces… maybe, beyond our ability to comprehend. I lean myself against your chest. Resting in your strong arms like many times before. My hand seeks your hand… you press it gently. You are looking at the horizon…beyond that line, lies the other part of our lives… the real world. I feel a sting of sadness in my heart, as reality catches up with me.

You are ready to walk with me across that line… I know it in my heart… I can see it in your eyes. But I can not go with you… I can not give what your are longing for and what your hearts desire. I let go of your warm hand… turn my head away from the horizon and look into your eyes once more. This time, you discover the sadness burning inside of me. You look worried, open your mouth to speak but stops as I slowly shake my head.

I whisper "Not now my love… not now"

I lean closer… Sealing your lips with an aching kiss.

Morina, June 1999